"It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but ourselves."
--Julius Caesar, William Shakespeare
So last week I turned 39. I could say that I celebrated, but I didn't.
And it's not because I have a "woe is me" attitude about getting older. That's not the case at all! In fact, I've made a conscious decision to do everything I can within the next year so that, just maybe, life really can begin at 40! Lol
Many of the decisions involve personal changes such as goals, hobbies, etc.
The changes are designed to bring at least some modicum of happiness into my life so that I can be exactly where I want to be one year from now both personally and professionally.
In order to make that happen, some things needed to be changed radically...others just needed tweaking.
And I did even more thinking about things this weekend...so perhaps it was either appropriate or serendipitous that I happened to take a short jaunt to Phoenix, Arizona.
In Greek mythology, the Phoenix is reborn through fire. To some extent I think all of do that (at least metaphorically) many times during the course of our lives. Sometimes we just need a change! (Though I wouldn't recommend that you do it through fire...you could get severely burned, arrested, or, at the very least, find yourself committed to a sanitarium...but I hear the Tapioca is tasty!)
Although the trip was only overnight to see my cousin, some of the things I observed and some of the conversations had in that short duration helped me put things into perspective. Another thing that helped was that I had almost 12 hrs of "me" time in the car driving...the open road and the alone time is much needed on occasion.
And I thought about what I want to do...where I want to be...the type of person I want to be with...and I realized that I'm tired of being "in flux"...limbo is a nice place to visit, but living there is far from appealing...
"Been living with nothing to show for it
You get what you get when you go for it"
--Ready To Take A Chance Again, Barry Manilow
So I'm about to take a lot of chances and go for what I want...and I hope the people I'm closest to are willing to accept that...hell...some of them maybe even involved! ;)
*By the way...does the Manilow/Shakespeare combo frighten you more or less than the Gibson/Wilde tandem from the "Only In My Dreams" post several days ago?
2 comments:
Oh good grief, Sean, first Debbie Gibson now Barry Manilow!
Seriously though, i'm right with ya,Sean. You know by now i only want the best for you. Here's a quote for free which might be appropo:
"Buckle up it's going to be a bumpy night!"
From All About Eve...good quote...
And thanks...you know I wish the best for you too! :)
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