"I've Said It Again, But Could I Please Rephrase It...

Maybe I can catch a ride
I couldn't really put it much plainer
But I'll wait 'til
You decide"
--New Moon On Monday, Duran Duran

Because apparently any form of subtext as in the last post is met with varying opinions on what I meant...but that's the fun in it...take from it what you want. ;)


Anyway, I was thinking a lot about time today and some quotes came to mind...

"There never seems
To be enough time
To do the things
You want to do
Once you find them"
--Time In A Bottle, Jim Croce

"This is your life and it's ending one minute at a time."
--Fight Club, Chuck Palahniuk

"You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying about the future"
--Unknown

It's not some weird "mortality" issue that I'm pondering...it's the fact that I wish there were more hours in the day just to enjoy certain things. Finishing a book...watching a movie...writing...spending time with a friend...

Sometimes even the simplest of pleasures seem out of reach.

I was standing outside at work today thinking, "Man, I've GOT to start playing that lottery." Lol

It's not that I desire material gain or want to be greedy...just enough to be comfortable with and enjoy little things.

I often hear people claim that they don't know what they do if they didn't work.

I can't believe people have trouble filling their time! I never lack for anything to do in the little down time (soon to be very little with new job responsibilities) that I have. In fact, I have a backlog of things to do when I finally get that precious time available to me...so much so that I find it difficult to get everything done.

Sometimes I wish I was just blissfully ignorant as to what the world has to offer so I could go about toiling away in the mundane nature of work and not consider all of my options.

However, in order to have options open to me, I have to work to enable myself to have access to them.

Kind of strikes me as lunacy when I really stop to think about it...lol.

So what it all comes down to is that you never have enough time...you always do worry about the future because what you do today affects it just as much as the past decisions you've made...it picks up speed (or at least seems to) as you age so that you feel as if you're trying to squeeze as much as you can out of the time you have so you don't feel as if you've wasted it later...and, in the end...

"Life is so brief
And time is a thief
When you're undecided
And like a fistful of sand
It can slip right through your hands"
--Young Turks, Rod Stewart

Thanks for spending some of your precious time with me for my fatigued, late night rambling!

We now resume our regular lives already in progress...